March 2012
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a few posts ago, ...
I said, “I loved our friendship because we could talk to each other. If there was something wrong, I never felt like I had any sort of hesitation to take it up with you.”
And then now we’re having this dialogue of: “I was just being honest, but now I know not to.” “Thanks for understanding.”
Obviously now I see I was right in that I felt like we...
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WIP: You Are.
You are the lightning.
The infrequency, the uncertainties terrify me, yet I’m kept holding on, anxious for more. I never know what to expect, when you will be around- you go just as quickly as you come: no build up, one night here, by dawn, gone. But I find a beauty in this, the way I might find a beauty in your every flaw. The brevity during which my world is lit up at its darkest point- I see...
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for once i might actually be wishing that you can...
I loved our friendship because we could talk to each other.
If there was something wrong, I never felt like I had any sort of hesitation to take it up with you.
That was new, it was refreshing.
If anything needed fixing between us, we could just talk about it.
I don’t know how, but it seems we’ve lost that.
Maybe it’s because I’m always so scared of being even more of...
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inhale, exhale, and repeat.: I love you valerie. I... →
bebebebebreathe:
If you died, I don’t think I would’ve live very long either. All I know is I’m so glad you didn’t carry out your thoughts because I know I wouldn’t have been better off without you. I won’t say all the ‘I’m here for you’ crap because I know you know it already. I know I’m not the best person to go…
Unexpectedly saw this whilst doing some best friend stalking.
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Will someone just take care of me 'cause I'm tired...
I would.
bebebebebreathe:
Does my presence or my absence mean anything to you?
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bebebebebreathe:
No. Don’t even bother anymore. It’s either you give me full responses and mean it or you don’t talk to me at all. Don’t give me those half-assed replies. Seriously. I’ve tried so hard to talk to you, make convo, ask you to chill and what not but fuck that shit. Step up your game fast doe. I’m an impatient motherfucker and I’m not one who’s going to bother if you don’t.
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lol getting angry at myself
for being driven to binge instead of being driven to starve.
lolmylife
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i was just thinking of the Earth...
what’s the likelihood that out of this infinite stretch of matter that is the universe,
only this little bit of rock has life on it,
life that’s built its own empire…?
imagine finding a planet really really far away (really really really really really really x a billion far away), and seeing moving creatures with weird metallic structures stretching ‘sky-high’ like...
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#suicidalthoughts
entirely unhealthy,
entirely unavoidable.
a girl from island school commit suicide recently, she was only in y9,
really shocked me into thinking what things would be like if i went through with what my brain constantly came up with in y8.
now i’m saying that she’s still so young and she had so much more to live for, but i feel like i can identify with how she felt…
and then...
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I know that we’re done with and ending and honestly, I’m done and over (so over) this.
You can only give so much for so long.
You’re right, it isn’t my job to care for you. It wasn’t ever a chore but recently I haven’t been able to find a reason to want to continue.
Friends don’t have job descriptions, but you hardly fit into this moulded...
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dear ... you, →
I want to take a moment to thank you for the solid sense of consistency that you provide in my everyday life. Things are so uncertain lately: there’s a satellite hurtling towards Earth, Wall Street is occupied, and there was a moving truck spotted outside Ashton and Demi’s home. The current state of affairs is definitely unsettling. Yet, I always know what I’m going to get with you, and for that,...
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i don't know when you'll realise that this is to... →
I don’t want to be friends with you because you’re a taker, not a giver. You’ll sit here and laugh at my jokes, asking me to tell more stories (jk you’ll tell me you’re not interested), but you won’t give me anything in return. You’ll come to me for advice but fail to even ask how I’m doing. You suck the energy out of me. You don’t add anything to any given situation and I’m too old...
RE: the previous pic post,
i’m feeling so done right now though ^^”
i hope this is it.
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i really don’t want you to think i’m creepy
and that everything i tweet
or do
or say
or post on my tumblr
is COMPLETELY relevant to my situation with you
because it isn’t
lol
cya
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YOU ARE THE SUN: Let's play the universe game. →
I’ll be a star cloud because that’s what your presence reduces me to. A mass of luminosity and in those moments, I’m impossible to measure mathematically. Not with the naked eye, anyway. It’s simpler than that: you say my name and I’ll glow.
You can be the North Star, burning bright and hot. You’re Polaris because you stand out, because you’re a fixture in my sky. Because when I’m lost, I can...
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arright
so technically i have 3 ‘parents’
i’m one of four siblings.
i’m no one’s favourite child LOL
remembering myself as a child
realising how much i lied lol.
i was basically perpetually sad.
i’m not surprised that the one of the few comments my dad has of me as a child is: she always cried.
he also told my stepmum before they started/when they just started that “i don’t really know my younger daughter very well.”
lol.
okay.
i remember sitting on my bed in my old home waiting for my mum to get...
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"nothing" happened between us? →
“So last night you came over to make the really grand gesture of telling me nothing happened between us. Nothing. Like, the complete absence of something. Hey bro, seems like if that was true you wouldn’t need to mention it, but thats just me. I guess I never realized what a strong word that was before though. Not one little thing. Like a black hole that just sucks any feelings away.
I’m...
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i'm not crazy
(but i am)
(just for you)
just kidding…
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lol mood actually dampened
like i said it would be. bye two day streak <3 you were really good, i had a lot of fun but it was fun i wasn’t meant to have
not for me.
i wish it were right for me but
we really are reading from two different scripts…
we want different things and it’s so good as it happens because it’s so ambiguous anyway, we can take it to be either way (lol one more than the...
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just like a movie →
I know no one is filming this, but sometimes I like to stare out of my window for too long anyway, I like to imagine that you’re standing on the sidewalk below it and craning your neck and begging can I come upstairs, please? Whenever the bell rings I hold my breath — just for a second — just to imagine that when I twist the lock and turn the knob and open the door you’ll be standing on the other...
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how you know →
… You find reasons to disentangle yourself from them; it’s only going to hurt later, you can tell already. You stay up way past your bedtime for them. You look at the clock and know their schedule. You neglect other people and other things, and beat yourself up about it. But it’s like they have a hold of your hands and your voice, and you don’t mind. It’s like you’re trapped in an hourglass;...
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42033) I remember the last time I was so close to...
candym0untaincharlie:
in all seriousness though like why does no one love me
